Where Are You My Spark?I do not look at my old photosWhen I see them, I notice a sparkI notice a spark in my eyes, It's small, but it's thereIf I look at myself in the mirror, I see nothingThere is no spark, I have looked, and it's not thereI have lost the happiness in me, I have lost my heartIt's broken, and I hope, someone will heal itI do not look at my old photosBecause in them I see a joy that I used to haveOh hidden spark in my eyeWhere is your hiding place?Where have you gone?
Would You Care?If I diedWould you care?If I criedWould you be there?If you diedI would dieIf you criedI would cryIf I screamedWould you calm me?If I lived in fearWould you hold meIf you screamedI would kiss you softlyIf you lived in fearI would always be thereI hope you knowThat I'm always thereEven if you hate meI'll always be here for youI hope you knowThat I will always careFor even in the darkest hourThere is a distant light shiningAnd it will always shineBecause some peopleThey never stop caring
I Don't Want A Super HeroI'm not looking for a super heroI'm not looking for someone to save the dayI'm not looking for a person who will lift the skies in my nameI'm looking for someone who staysI'm not looking for a godI'm not looking for someone to clear the heavensI'm not looking for someone that doesn't hateI'm looking for someone that makes me want to live another dayI'm not looking for a macho guy or a shy girlI'm not looking for a fairytaleI'm not looking for someone who only stays in bedI'm looking for someone that makes me smile each dayI'm not looking for a super heroI'm looking for someone who staysI'm looking for someone that makes me want to live another dayI'm looking for someone that makes me smile each dayI'm looking for someone, who thinks I'm perfect, this way
I'm So Tired Of Being HereI'm so tired of being hereI'm trapped by all my fearsI wish you could see me nowBroken and crying for helpMy blood it flowsAnd I don't want it to stopI'm so tired of being hereI'm trapped by all my fearsI wish I could heal myselfWipe all these tears awayBut my heart it bleedsAnd I don't know how to stop the bloodI'm so sick of being hurtI'm trapped in my own mindI wish I could hear those songsBut then I remember youAnd I now I cry againGod why can't I be a man?
Game OverI have reached my limitAt this moment I will give inIt's soon my timeI give inThe game is overAnd it has been a long timeI will wake up whenI dream about lifeMy time is coming soonI feel my body lose its warmthAnd if I do fallI pray that my soul is unbrokenGame overName my tombstone thatAnd write under those wordsIt was a long run, but now I have lost forever
Please, Save MePlease, save meI'm going underPlease, save meI'm drowning in my tearsPlease, save meI'm not gonna make itPlease, save meI don't want to lose this battlePlease, save meBut you ignored my pleaPlease, save meYou left me for deadPlease, don't save meFor this time, I will save myself
My World Is DeadSome people are scared of the end of the worldI'm not afraid of that, because my world is already dead
Abuse MeDon't take it inDon't let the sadness winBeautiful is the human lifeIf you open just your eyesIf you feel that no one caresIf you feel that no one is thereThen turn aroundI'm right thereWhatever you do to meI will always careScream at meHit meFor in the end, I will always love youIf you're my friend, then I will take the beatingTake your hatred out on me, make your victim my headI want the abuse, abuse me
I Don't KnowI don't knowWhy I'm still hereI don't knowWhy I made it troughI don't wonderBecause I know it's luckI don't wonderBecause in the end it could have been meBut when this song playsI know, that I want to stayFor a small hope, even if it's in vainThat's all I need, to smileEven at the darkest times
Bandaid BoxI wish I could be a band aid boxCovering your scars and cutsHeal your wounds and make it alrightI wish I could be a band aid boxFor then I could fix the pain I have causedHelp them heal and spread some loveI wish I could be a band aid boxA tiny little band aid boxSo I could fix the pain I have caused
Dead InsideI'm searching for faithIn a world left for deadI'm crying for helpIn a world forever goneI'm hoping for a dreamIn a nightmare never-endingI'm clinging to my emotionsBut soon I will have nonI'm dyingI'm dying aliveDeath comes aliveDeath is a part of lifeBut what if I'm already dead, inside
This Is Gonna Take A Long TimeYou must love yourself to love others....... This is going to take a long time
A Sweet Kiss DarlingA sweet kiss darling, that's all I needA warm hug and your comforting wordsA hard punch darling, that's all I needA beating and the screaming makes my dayA dark corner darling, that's all I needA place to hide away and be freeA sweet kiss darling, that's all I needA word of sorrow and your cries for forgiveness
HeartbeatThat's the sound of the time bomb ticking awayWhen it is gone nothing will remainSo are you sure that you want to stay?For that's the sound of my time bomb ticking awayWhy does god want us to go through this pain?And why do we bother if it's in vainSo why do I even want to stay?Why does god want us to go through this pain?I don't deserve you why can't you see?You're better than someone like meWhy would you want even me?I don't deserve you why can't you see?Why should I take all of your shit?There's a limit of what I can't takeCome on just give me sometimeWhy should I take all of your shit?That's the sound of my time bomb ticking awayWhen it is gone nothing will remainSo are you sure that you want to stay?For that's the sound of my heartbeat beating away
RainSome people walk out to cry in the rainBut I'm a lazy personI walk into the shower to cry
I'm HauntedI'm hauntedI'm haunted in my headI'm haunted in my homeI'm haunted all the way back homeI see, I rememberThat cuddle coach is dustyMy bed is full of tearsThe bathroom has blood stainAnd my mind has fearsI'm haunted by her wordsI'm haunted by her voiceI'm haunted by her faceI wish I could sayThe break-up was finewe weren't meant for eachotherBut for me, she was the oneI'm haunted by herAnd she won't ever know
The Tears Are DriedThe tears are dried, but I still cryThere is something in me that won't stopMy sadness has ended, but I'm not happyThere is something in me that won't let meI'm trapped in the past, and recovery is 50 miles awayI have tried walking but I do not get any closerThe blessings I have had, they are countedNow I will find all my cursesI think I deserve this, am I wrong?Can even the one up above forgive me?Moving on, oh I wish I couldBut my heart is stuck and I can't help itThe tears have dried, but I still cryThere is something in me that won't stop
You Are Now GonePerhaps you were my oxygenAs without you I cannot breatheStars reminded me of your eyesMy love, why did you have to leave?So out of the blue you left meIn to black my fragile heart brokeA thousand lost words were exchangedYet not one single word was spokeI'm focusing on my time pieceI've given you peace for some timeThough love is clearly black and whiteFriendship is harder to defineIt's the shades of grey that haunt meThose seeds of love we didn't sowThe memories we never madeOur bloom that has refused to growThe pressure I feel without youThis volcano shall soon eruptBut I will implode silentlyThis was no ordinary loveYou were my best friend; a tonicAn antidote to all that was wrongYou said you would never leave meYour silence says you are now gone
I'll Remember YouI'll remember youwhen someone steals my breathso I can't even speak.I'll remember youwhen the rain beats so hardI can't hear myself think.I'll remember youwhen I see a careless smileon a young girl's face.I'll remember youwhen my heart achesin a lonely place.I'll remember youwhen the going gets roughand no one's there for me.I'll remember youwhen I fruitlessly wishfor things that used to be.I'll remember youwhen I see someone smileas they hide a sigh.I'll remember youwhen someone's surprisedat the word "goodbye."I'll remember youwhen another claims to bemy other half.I'll remember you, darling...I'll remember and laugh.
In a Little Girl's MindThere sits the girl with the things in her eyesMonsters, destruction, and sweet butterfliesHopscotch and daisies, surrounded by screamsBeautiful dresses now torn at the seamsCrayons and paintbrushes, villains and grinsYoung, gladsome innocence, hatred and sinsLittle red houses on roads left to fadeGorgeous moonlight shining off of the bladeBlood pouring out as she cries her own nameKnowing she's forced to take each bit of blameShe could have stopped it and left it behindAll of these things in her troubled young mindShe could have saved them if she dared to tryRather, though, she left herself there to die.Now, others watch as she sits on the groundKeeping their distance and letting her drownIn her own worries and things she won't tellWaiting for her mind to kill her as well
Who says I dont care?I don't care who you areI don't care what you wereBut if you are with me,I will care about youI don't care where you liveI don't care what you live inBut if you have no reason to live,I will help you find your reasonI don't care what relationship you hadI don't care who they were withBut if they hurt you,I will be there for youI know I don't care about many thingsI know I'm blunt and insensitive at timesJust know thatI am your friend and you are mineI may not care at times, but right now I doI'm not insensitive because I still care for you
Sweet Bird in A CageSweet Bird in a Cage:Sweet bird you lived your life in a cage,Black forces, burned you all away...How could I sit by and watch you die?Sleep soundly on the bed where you used to lie.Your legs and your arms were bleeding,Burned stump on the night, were you crying?How sweet was the sound of you dying?In pools of blood, were you smiling?Sweet bird you lived your life in a cage,I wondered, how I used to hate...Your life and your sweetness inside,I took your life on that cold night...Crying all these tears of weakness,Sweet bird you took on my sickness.Deep inside of the forest of witches,You lie in the darkest ditches...Sweet bird you lived your life in a cage,Now I'm filled with a horrid and empty rage.Though I took, I'm never satisfied,I miss you, now I'll come to your side...-Chen Yuan Wen, 2nd March 2012
Do you still--think you got the best of me?think again.assume i'm still crying over glass pieces of my heart?look again.believe i'll never be the same again?because i'll be better.feel like i want you back?just to show you how unbroken i am. ---think i need you like i used to?think again.assume that i'll still be waiting under a rainy sky with unread letters?look again.believe i'm only a reader who gave up writing for you?because i'm better than before.feel like i don't mean a word i say?it's because you never knew me.
Is It Wrong?Is it wrongThat I glance up at the clouds,Feeling the wind through my hair,And dream of a mystifying landWhere one can be accepted no matter what?Is it wrongThat I choose to wear jeans down past my heels,Baggy and ripped at the knees,Unlike all the other boys that wear athleticShorts, so unscathed and clean?Is it wrongThat I ask people about their troubles,Sometimes doing all in my mortal powerTo help them surpass the simple,Even ones I have not defeated myself?Is it wrongThat while the few friends I haveDance around giddily and go toThe most extreme only to impress,But I only hang back in silent content?Is it wrongThat I do not laugh when others are hurt,On their knees in blood stained mud,And I am there with hand outstretched,Seeming to always be there in time of need?Is it wrongThat I do not clap, nor do I supportOnes I do not find worthy of it,Ones who I find in my perspective to beQuite cruel and bitterly heartless?Is it wrongThat I choose to sit in
I broke a mirrorI broke a mirror today.What it showed me horrified me, so it didn't deserve to live.The mirror's image was terrible,it was an ugly mirror, it lied.It deserved to die.I crushed it into a million beautiful,sparkling shiny peices with my clunky bare hands.They carved into my already torn skin, spillling lovely rivulets of red onto the floor.The mirror was beautiful now that my reflection was gone from it.
I wantI want to see her.I want to touch her.I want to kiss her.I want to explore her.I want to taste her.I want to love her.I want to be seen.I want to be touched.I want to be kissed.I want to be explored.I want to be tasted.I want to be loved....By her.I want to be ME.But I can't be ME.I can't be free.I can't be honest.I can't be open.I can't...I have to be fake.I have to be chained.I have to lie.I have to hide.I have to...But I don't want to.
Love Is. Love Is Love isWhen I can'tSay your nameWithout feeling the butterfliesLove is whenI didn't knowI could feel like thisAnd yet it feels better each dayLove is whenYou think you'll never get over itBut time heals allAnd eventually you let them goLove is whenWe talk day after dayAnd the conversationNever gets oldAnd love is whenYou hold my heart in your handAnd you wake me up with your lipsAnd love is whenA song comes onAnd we both know all the wordsAnd love is whenI don't even knowWhere I endAnd you beginLove is when we are so tightly wrappedAround the other's fingersThat you have no idea how to untangle yourselfLove is when you realize you don't want toLove is whenYour head is on my shoulderAnd your lips are on my neckAnd your words fill my earsLove is differentFrom any other feelingAnd love is what sets us all apartAnd love is what brings us all togetherLove is not one heartBut two heartsTwo hearts that just happen to beatTo the same rh
You Love The SoundsI finally understand whyYou keep hurting meTime after timeYou love the soundsMy heart makesEvery timeIt breaks