I'm so tired of being here
I'm trapped by all my fears
I wish you could see me now
Broken and crying for help
My blood it flows
And I don't want it to stop

I'm so tired of being here
I'm trapped by all my fears
I wish I could heal myself
Wipe all these tears away
But my heart it bleeds
And I don't know how to stop the blood

I'm so sick of being hurt
I'm trapped in my own mind
I wish I could hear those songs
But then I remember you
And I now I cry again
God why can't I be a man?

Dear Scouting Knife

No darling, I won't crawl back to you again
Stop calling, your voice will die in my head
You won't fix it, I'm better off on my own
Dear scouting knife, Leave me alone

I Walk This Earth, For Nothing

I walk this earth, for nothing
I have no dreams
No ambitions
I have no hope, for tomorrow

I'm not happy, I'm not sad
I can hardly smile
I rarely cry
My emotions, they are dead

I walk this earth, for nothing
I walk this earth
simply to walk on it
I walk this earth, and I keep moving

Nothingness, that's my reason
My reason to smile
My reason to cry
My reason, for everything I do

Nothingness, is my hope
The reason I live
The reason I will die
Nothingness, a sweet word

For me, nothingness is a reason, it's a reason to live
also , life is a dark road, you never know what you will find

Would You Care?

If I died
Would you care?
If I cried
Would you be there?

If you died
I would die
If you cried
I would cry

If I screamed
Would you calm me?
If I lived in fear
Would you hold me

If you screamed
I would kiss you softly
If you lived in fear
I would always be there

I hope you know
That I'm always there
Even if you hate me
I'll always be here for you

I hope you know
That I will always care
For even in the darkest hour
There is a distant light shining

And it will always shine
Because some people
They never stop caring

This Is Gonna Take A Long Time

You must love yourself to love others
....... This is going to take a long time

My World Is Dead

Some people are scared of the end of the world
I'm not afraid of that, because my world is already dead

Sea Of Depression

Left alone, in my heart
Six feet under
Cry in pain, dead inside
Six feet under

Fix the rose, stop the blood
Five feet Under
Kinda stuck, but It will mend
Five feet under

Now I'm stuck, Left for dead
Four feet under
Sometimes, I feel like shit
Four feet under

Getting better, all alone
Three feet under
I put my faith, in him for once
Three feet under

Music tastes, so damn good
Two feet under
I can listen again, to our song
Two feet under

Your almost there, you can grasp the air
a feet under
Tears of joy, crack a smile
a feet under

I'm finally out, finally free
I'm over the sea
I can love again, I can be me
I'm over t

I Don't Wanna Grow Up

I don't want to grow up
It was so much more fun
When I didn't understand
What happened around me, how it fell

I don't want to get old
Be wise and all that
For after years of living
I would know that life, isn't intact

I don't want to get a place of my own
Responsibility isn't my thing
I wouldn't be able to watch my offspring
knowing what they would face, a dying world
And a hope, left for dead

I want to stay young
I want to be unknowing
For in the end
Being stupid, will make it easier
To accept the end

I Don't Want A Super Hero

On The InsideOn the inside I'm alone
In my head there is chaos
On the outside I'm free
I'm calm and just me

I hang myself everyday
Under my skin I kill myself
What you see is a smile
What you hear is a laugh

A lost soul looking for a purpose
What does it expect to find?
Answers or the truth?
Cause am I really alive?

Dead Inside

I'm searching for faith
In a world left for dead
I'm crying for help
In a world forever gone

I'm hoping for a dream
In a nightmare never-ending
I'm clinging to my emotions
But soon I will have non

I'm dying
I'm dying alive
Death comes alive
Death is a part of life

But what if I'm already dead, inside

Happy Poem?

Someone asked me to write a happy poem
But I can't, on the inside I'm not happy

Someone asked me to smile for the camera
But how can I, When I'm falling part

Someone asked me to laugh my real laugh
But I can't, there is something wrong with me

Someone asked me to write a happy poem
But I can't, I'm not happy inside

And happiness is the only emotion
I can't fake

Rain

Some people walk out to cry in the rain
But I'm a lazy person
I walk into the shower to cry

Bandaid Box

I wish I could be a band aid box
Covering your scars and cuts
Heal your wounds and make it alright

I wish I could be a band aid box
For then I could fix the pain I have caused
Help them heal and spread some love

I wish I could be a band aid box
A tiny little band aid box
So I could fix the pain I have caused

Don't Listen To Them

Don't listen to them
Don't let them feed you lies
You're perfect, just the way you are

Don't give them the gain
Don't let them feed on your despair
You're golden inside, I know you are

Don't give them a reason
They enjoy seeing you suffer
But in the end it's not worth the while

Their mouths are like open graves
They tell only lies
For deep inside, you're worth more than a thousand diamonds that shine

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And what do I see?
A boy that looks just like me
But this can't be me

He has a small smile on his lips
My lips forms a frown
His eyes sparkle
Mine are dull

His face is relaxed
Mine is full of anger
His hands are free
mine are tied

This boy in the mirror
Is my small mask
The boy I show
When I'm around

This isn't me
I'm not who you think
This boy in the mirror
He is the unknown

The Wall of BricksThis is not a dead end
It's always a way to move
Just think outside the box
The brick wall is not an end
It's there to wake you up
So you will find other ways
And think before you make choices

Tick Tack, The Clock Is Ticking

The clock is ticking
Tick tack tick tack
The pills are in my hands
tick tack tick tack
A glass of jack is next to me
Tick tack tick tack
The clock is ticking
Inside me

They say they're always here
But then why am I so lonely?
They say they'll always care
But why do they have so few emotions?

The clock is ticking
Tick tack tick tack
I slowly lift my hands
tick tack tick tack
I swallow them slowly
Tick tack tick tack
I drink the jack
And the clock stops ticking

A life is like a clock
One day it stops ticking
From the day we are born
We are slowly dying

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When the clock is tired
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by ~Meandor117, Feb 29, 2012, 7:04:44 PM
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The darkness embraces me
I'm getting cold
The darkness inside of me
It's so very old

You have made it grow
It has found its way
You have made it show
And it won't go away

Those words they beat me
I'm in pain
For lies they feed me
Its in vain

I know the truth
I'm the one to blame
But my darkness within
It won't go away

I hope someone will cast a light
On my shattered heart
I hope someone will love
This monster I'm

Without light, there is no shadow
Without good, there is no bad
Without death ,we wouldn't be alive
And without hate, we wouldn't feel love

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I can't sleep, a friend of mine got me in depressing thoughs O.o And I realised that I have darkness inside my heart, and it wants to come out o.o

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~i-am-tsukiko Mar 23, 2012 Student General Artist

We all have that, but what we do within matters the most, because what is inside us, will eventually manifest itself outward.

~Hawk-tip Mar 4, 2012 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

So very true ^^ All of it. The ending is my favorite part.

~Meandor117 Mar 4, 2012

Glad yah liked it ^^

~Hawk-tip Mar 5, 2012 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

Me too!

!luvserenity000 Mar 4, 2012 Student Writer

hun. hang in there. youll make it out. im rooting for you!

~AngelWithLittleHands Mar 2, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Wonderfull, i love it!

~Meandor117 Mar 2, 2012

Ich been glad

~Shadowy-Nights Mar 1, 2012

Amazing

~Meandor117 Mar 2, 2012

Danke Schön ^^

~Hues-of-emotion Mar 1, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

everyone has darkness in their hearts. it is our decision whether we act upon the darkness, or the light. there is a fight in our hearts, between the dark and the light. dont let the darkness win.

If you have seen "Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde" you will understand the concepts.

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