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Rain
Some people walk out to cry in the rain
But I'm a lazy person
I walk into the shower to cry
Would You Care?
If I died
Would you care?
If I cried
Would you be there?

If you died
I would die
If you cried
I would cry

If I screamed
Would you calm me?
If I lived in fear
Would you hold me

If you screamed
I would kiss you softly
If you lived in fear
I would always be there

I hope you know
That I'm always there
Even if you hate me
I'll always be here for you

I hope you know
That I will always care
For even in the darkest hour
There is a distant light shining

And it will always shine
Because some people
They never stop caring
The Darkness In Me
The darkness embraces me
I'm getting cold
The darkness inside of me
It's so very old

You have made it grow
It has found its way
You have made it show
And it won't go away

Those words they beat me
I'm in pain
For lies they feed me
Its in vain

I know the truth
I'm the one to blame
But my darkness within
It won't go away

I hope someone will cast a light
On my shattered heart
I hope someone will love
This monster I'm

Without light, there is no shadow
Without good, there is no bad
Without death ,we wouldn't be alive
And without hate,  we wouldn't feel love
I'm So Tired Of Being Here
I'm so tired of being here
I'm trapped by all my fears
I wish you could see me now
Broken and crying for help
My blood it flows
And I don't want it to stop

I'm so tired of being here
I'm trapped by all my fears
I wish I could heal myself
Wipe all these tears away
But my heart it bleeds
And I don't know how to stop the blood

I'm so sick of being hurt
I'm trapped in my own mind
I wish I could hear those songs
But then I remember you
And I now I cry again
God why can't I be a man?
I Walk This Earth, For Nothing
I walk this earth, for nothing
I have no dreams
No ambitions
I have no hope, for tomorrow

I'm not happy, I'm not sad
I can hardly smile
I rarely cry
My emotions, they are dead

I walk this earth, for nothing
I walk this earth
simply to walk on it
I walk this earth, and I keep moving

Nothingness, that's my reason
My reason to smile
My reason to cry
My reason, for everything I do

Nothingness, is my hope
The reason I live
The reason I will die
Nothingness, a sweet word

For me, nothingness is a reason, it's a reason to live
also , life is a dark road, you never know what you will find
This Is Gonna Take A Long Time
You must love yourself to love others
....... This is going to take a long time
My World Is Dead
Some people are scared of the end of the world
I'm not afraid of that, because my world is already dead
Dead Inside
I'm searching for faith
In a world left for dead
I'm crying for help
In a world forever gone

I'm hoping for a dream
In a nightmare never-ending
I'm clinging to my emotions
But soon I will have non

I'm dying
I'm dying alive
Death comes alive
Death is a part of life

But what if I'm already dead, inside
Bandaid Box
I wish I could be a band aid box
Covering your scars and cuts
Heal your wounds and make it alright

I wish I could be a band aid box
For then I could fix the pain I have caused
Help them heal and spread some love

I wish I could be a band aid box
A tiny little band aid box
So I could fix the pain I have caused
Dear Scouting Knife
No darling, I won't crawl back to you again
Stop calling, your voice will die in my head
You won't fix it, I'm better off on my own
Dear scouting knife, Leave me alone
Happy Poem?
Someone asked me to write a happy poem
But I can't, on the inside I'm not happy

Someone asked me to smile for the camera
But how can I, When I'm falling part

Someone asked me to laugh my real laugh
But I can't, there is something wrong with me

Someone asked me to write a happy poem
But I can't, I'm not happy inside

And happiness is the only emotion
I can't fake
Sometimes
Sometimes I wish I was dead
Sometimes I want to change the past
Sometimes I regret
And sometimes I'm hurt

Sometimes I smile
Sometimes I cry
Sometimes I Hate
And sometimes I'm emotional

Sometimes I wish
Sometimes I hope
sometimes I dream
And sometimes I crawl

But in the end
I'm still me
And if you want to change that
Then I got two words for you

Fuck off
Don't Listen To Them
Don't listen to them
Don't let them feed you lies
You're perfect, just the way you are

Don't give them the gain
Don't let them feed on your despair
You're golden inside, I know you are

Don't give them a reason
They enjoy seeing you suffer
But in the end it's not worth the while

Their mouths are like open graves
They tell only lies
For deep inside, you're worth more than a thousand diamonds that shine
I Don't Wanna Grow Up
I don't want to grow up
It was so much more fun
When I didn't understand
What happened around me, how it fell

I don't want to get old
Be wise and all that
For after years of living
I would know that life, isn't intact

I don't want to get a place of my own
Responsibility isn't my thing
I wouldn't be able to watch my offspring
knowing what they would face, a dying world
And a hope, left for dead

I want to stay young
I want to be unknowing
For in the end
Being stupid, will make it easier
To accept the end
Alien
I must be an alien
The others handle it so well
They move on
They're fine

I must be an alien
The others handle it so well
I'm crying
And I'm dying

I must be an alien
The only thing that I want
Is a friend
To hold me, to control me

I wish I could turn humanoid
Maybe then I wouldn't be alone
I'm broken
And I'm open

I must be an alien
I'm on the outside looking in
I'm Hoping
For nothing
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In BalanceI swear I'm alive
This is god's way to define
Me as a human being
And me as a broken dream

Don't cry for this lost hope
Cause I'm already gone
But heaven doesn't wait
Hell is there and it will take

Loué soit le Seigneur
Je suis allé en enfer
Die aujourd'hui
Parce que là, votre âme est à vendre

I believed in my heart
But now I slave for the devil and his dark
I used to love and live
Now I'm working against my will

Heaven wont cry for this lost soul
Cause the fires of hell
Even they need warmth
There is a balance, and now I'm in it

Loué soit le Seigneur
Et sa cour
Car eux seuls en boiront le v
The RoseTear the rose apart
Let the blossom die
Tear it like you tear a heart
Fill it with your empty lies

Scream in deaths name
Cause that's what it does
Set it on fire
And as it burns laugh

The rose is your light
The rose is your dream
Still you destroy it
The virginity of pendants

The rose has its thorns
But it doesn't want to hurt you
The rose is insecure
And still it smells so sweet

The rose is a symbol
That makes us think
The rose is a hope
And it decays, In a dying world
Cousin Of DeathCousin of death, take me in
Let me rest, forgive this sin
I haven't lost it all, but I show pain
And soon I guess, I will walk in the rain

Oh cold winter, don't remind me
Of how, I couldn't see
Oh cold winters day, you're as cold as my heart
Remind me of the days, when it was warm

Cousin of death, comfort me
Make me believe, this isn't the best of me
Cousin of death, invite your friends
Cause agony and suffering, is better in the end

Death, I have been alive way to long
Your cousin, makes me wish that I was wrong
Cause I don't wanna wake up
So please, take me in your warm blankets
And don't let me open my eyes
Ever again

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Sea Of Depression

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Left alone, in my heart
Six feet under
Cry in pain, dead inside
Six feet under

Fix the rose, stop the blood
Five feet Under
Kinda stuck, but It will mend
Five feet under

Now I'm stuck, Left for dead
Four feet under
Sometimes, I feel like shit
Four feet under

Getting better, all alone
Three feet under
I put my faith, in him for once
Three feet under

Music tastes, so damn good
Two feet under
I can listen again, to our song
Two feet under

Your almost there, you can grasp the air
a feet under
Tears of joy, crack a smile
a feet under

I'm finally out, finally free
I'm over the sea
I can love again, I can be me
I'm over the sea

But don't you, don't you ever drown me again
My six feet took more time than you can imagine
I smile and I'm fine again
But the sea of depression is still there
And waits to swallow me
Once more

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Well this is bacilly my stages of depression, like in the fourth I'm worse than I'm in the fifth, but it lasts not even HALF as long, so its really short, ftm I'm in my third :D I'm getting better and i have to say, if it wasn't for you guys reading, I would still be at step 5 ^^

Here is where I found the photo : [link] :D

I hope you have liked it and also I hope you notice that I have gotten a TINY bit better ;)
©2012-2013 ~Meandor117
Category: Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

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!luvserenity000 Feb 21, 2012  Student Writer
its really nice
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~Meandor117 Feb 21, 2012
Good ^^
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!luvserenity000 Feb 22, 2012  Student Writer
!)
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~Darkthrop Feb 21, 2012
true story.
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~Meandor117 Feb 21, 2012
Indeed :(
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~Darkthrop Feb 22, 2012
at least, for some, writing down those things make them go away for a little while...
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~Meandor117 Feb 22, 2012
In all honesty, all that keeps me smiling these days is my poetry, it has helped alot :) I hope you have your own release :)
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~Darkthrop Feb 22, 2012
yep. music, and other poetry, written by people that feel like me in that moment. :D
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~Meandor117 Feb 22, 2012
That is very good :D
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~Darkthrop Feb 22, 2012
it helps
:)
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