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They say that every scars tells a story
Well, then I'm a fucking history book

Cousin Of DeathCousin of death, take me in
Let me rest, forgive this sin
I haven't lost it all, but I show pain
And soon I guess, I will walk in the rain

Oh cold winter, don't remind me
Of how, I couldn't see
Oh cold winters day, you're as cold as my heart
Remind me of the days, when it was warm

Cousin of death, comfort me
Make me believe, this isn't the best of me
Cousin of death, invite your friends
Cause agony and suffering, is better in the end

Death, I have been alive way to long
Your cousin, makes me wish that I was wrong
Cause I don't wanna wake up
So please, take me in your warm blankets
And don't let me open my eyes
Ever again

I Have Changed

My tears, they won't dry for awhile
My blood, it will flow for some time
My fears, they keep me alive
But in the end
This is the real me
Not the portrait you once knew
I have changed, and so have you

I'm So Tired Of Being Here

I'm so tired of being here
I'm trapped by all my fears
I wish you could see me now
Broken and crying for help
My blood it flows
And I don't want it to stop

I'm so tired of being here
I'm trapped by all my fears
I wish I could heal myself
Wipe all these tears away
But my heart it bleeds
And I don't know how to stop the blood

I'm so sick of being hurt
I'm trapped in my own mind
I wish I could hear those songs
But then I remember you
And I now I cry again
God why can't I be a man?

The Darkness In Me

The darkness embraces me
I'm getting cold
The darkness inside of me
It's so very old

You have made it grow
It has found its way
You have made it show
And it won't go away

Those words they beat me
I'm in pain
For lies they feed me
Its in vain

I know the truth
I'm the one to blame
But my darkness within
It won't go away

I hope someone will cast a light
On my shattered heart
I hope someone will love
This monster I'm

Without light, there is no shadow
Without good, there is no bad
Without death ,we wouldn't be alive
And without hate, we wouldn't feel love

I'm Worthless

Don't tell me I'm worthless
Don't tell me I'm nothing
You can't change me
Because I used to be something

I used to be
But I lost my ways
Instead of helping
You double my pain

Don't tell me I'm worthless
I already know it

Alien

I must be an alien
The others handle it so well
They move on
They're fine

I must be an alien
The others handle it so well
I'm crying
And I'm dying

I must be an alien
The only thing that I want
Is a friend
To hold me, to control me

I wish I could turn humanoid
Maybe then I wouldn't be alone
I'm broken
And I'm open

I must be an alien
I'm on the outside looking in
I'm Hoping
For nothing

My World Is Dead

Some people are scared of the end of the world
I'm not afraid of that, because my world is already dead

The Wet InkI hope you know
That every night
You're in my head

I hope you know
That I still care
And that I did was wrong

The ink is wet
As I write
On this piece of paper

For the tears
Of my sins
They won't disappear

Sea Of Depression

Left alone, in my heart
Six feet under
Cry in pain, dead inside
Six feet under

Fix the rose, stop the blood
Five feet Under
Kinda stuck, but It will mend
Five feet under

Now I'm stuck, Left for dead
Four feet under
Sometimes, I feel like shit
Four feet under

Getting better, all alone
Three feet under
I put my faith, in him for once
Three feet under

Music tastes, so damn good
Two feet under
I can listen again, to our song
Two feet under

Your almost there, you can grasp the air
a feet under
Tears of joy, crack a smile
a feet under

I'm finally out, finally free
I'm over the sea
I can love again, I can be me
I'm over t

I Don't Want A Super Hero

I Have Never

I have never quite forgiven myself
I have never felt like I deserve better
I have never felt so depressed
And I guess I have never felt love

I have never had a smaller hope
I have never had so much faith
I have never cried so many times
And I guess I have never felt so lost

I have never ever been so thoughtful
I have never in my dreams grinded so wide
I have never lost my faith in you
But I guess, that's why it hurts

Please, Save MePlease, save me
I'm going under
Please, save me
I'm drowning in my tears

Please, save me
I'm not gonna make it
Please, save me
I don't want to lose this battle

Please, save me
But you ignored my plea
Please, save me
You left me for dead

Please, don't save me
For this time, I will save myself

Have You Ever Felt

Have you ever felt alone, in a room full of people?
Have you ever felt dead, when you 're alive?
Have you ever laughed, but cried your heart out on the inside?
Have you ever felt free, But still trapped?
Have you ever felt the need, the big need to
Fake a smile, and act like it's okay?
I have, and I will do
But staying true to yourself, knowing who you are
That is the most important thing, a human can do

Alone, Hurt, Sharp, Sins, Edges, CutAlone
In the dark room
Made of my doubt
I pick up a piece
Of my broken heart

Sharp
I touch it
With my shaky finger tip
I feel it against me
I sigh and start think

Hurt
That's the word
It explains the feelings
The emotions
That I hide

Sins
The wrongs
That I have done
To god, mankind
And myself

Edges
They call to me
I know that I can't resist
I need this
I really do

Cut
I use the piece
Of my broken heart
And I cut my wrist
Hoping to never wake up
Again

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Abuse MeDon't take it in
Don't let the sadness win
Beautiful is the human life

If you open just your eyes
If you feel that no one cares
If you feel that no one is there
Then turn around

I'm right there
Whatever you do to me
I will always care

Scream at me
Hit me

For in the end, I will always love you
If you're my friend, then I will take the beating
Take your hatred out on me, make your victim my head
I want the abuse, abuse me

On The InsideOn the inside I'm alone
In my head there is chaos
On the outside I'm free
I'm calm and just me

I hang myself everyday
Under my skin I kill myself
What you see is a smile
What you hear is a laugh

A lost soul looking for a purpose
What does it expect to find?
Answers or the truth?
Cause am I really alive?

Peace?We push on day after day
Just so we can see a new dawn
We sweat and dehydrate
To prepare for a new war

As we hear the marching armies
We run behind our walls
The stones will rain tonight
If we are lucky we might see another dawn

The days passes by
The siege never ends
Food supplies are running short
And the kids are starving

Wars like this started it all
The mind of man wanted to go to war
They made machines to kill and murder
I hoped that they wouldn't go much further

The plains they fly in the sky
Dropping death and terror at the ground
If we humans really seek peace
Then how come we have fucked up so bad?

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The Water Is Deep

Jon stood at the edge of a small harbor in St Olafsburg. He looked down into the lake, it had to be far enough for his plan, it had to be. It was in the middle of March and there wasn't a single boat there, and no one ever came at this time of the year. They wouldn't notice, they never notice.

He pulled up his dark jeans from his butt and grabbed the garbage on his right. He walked away from the harbor and to the rocky beach right next to it. He looked for heavy rocks, there were few but they would still do their job. Jon found 10 large rocks and placed them into the garbage bag. He walked over to the edge o

It Snows It Snows

Heaven or hell
God or Satan
I don't care, for in my hell it would snow all day
And my heaven is too far away from the ground

Let them fight for me
For I guess I'm spoiled
Where ever they would place me
I wouldn't be happy, in the end

Open Your EyesIf you can't face my lies
Then how will you accept the truth?
if you can't open your eyes
Then how can you claim to see through?
If you can't understand me
Then why do you even bother?
I make it as simple as I can
But you just can't get it

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In Balance

by ~Meandor117, Jun 28, 2012, 11:42:49 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I swear I'm alive
This is god's way to define
Me as a human being
And me as a broken dream

Don't cry for this lost hope
Cause I'm already gone
But heaven doesn't wait
Hell is there and it will take

Loué soit le Seigneur
Je suis allé en enfer
Die aujourd'hui
Parce que là, votre âme est à vendre

I believed in my heart
But now I slave for the devil and his dark
I used to love and live
Now I'm working against my will

Heaven wont cry for this lost soul
Cause the fires of hell
Even they need warmth
There is a balance, and now I'm in it

Loué soit le Seigneur
Et sa cour
Car eux seuls en boiront le vin
Et ils sont les seuls danser et chanter

Loué soit le Seigneur
Et mon satan
Pour les boissons diable
Ä partir d'un pot fait, pour l'ensemble de nos os

In Balanceby ~Meandor117

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I wanted to try something new, and this came to mind

I like it myself and my lovely friend who know A LOT of languages helped me

He is a wonderfull cap at times but can bring down your grades, I think you all know him

GOOGLE TRANSLATE XD XD XD XD :333

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~xxxsnowstormxxx Jun 29, 2012

ohmygosh i loved the french in this! i didnt understand all of it, cuz ive only gone through French 1 so far, but i understood some of it and im a huge french nerd, so i kinda fell in love... <3

~Meandor117 Jul 3, 2012

Glad you liked it

~xxxsnowstormxxx Jul 3, 2012

~Darkthrop Jun 29, 2012

so then, French is ....great. at least, that's what i think now, after my teacher became a normal person. Meaning, she doesn't make any more crisis in class =_=. woo. hoo.
great poem

~Meandor117 Jul 3, 2012

LOLOLO XD Had the same in german ._. Lost all interest XD

~Darkthrop Jul 3, 2012

my german teacher became very calm. the bad part is that she became very calm in the last day of school...lol

~Meandor117 Jul 3, 2012

LOL XD THAT ONE FUCKING SUCKS XD Sorry for the language BUT IT DOES FUCKING SUCK XD XD XD

~DomoSushiLuver Jun 28, 2012

wow that is very amazing and good job on the Spanish

~Meandor117 Jul 3, 2012

It's french

~DomoSushiLuver Jul 3, 2012

omg i did not know that i'm bad with french i'm so sorry

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