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The Darkness In Me

The darkness embraces me
I'm getting cold
The darkness inside of me
It's so very old

You have made it grow
It has found its way
You have made it show
And it won't go away

Those words they beat me
I'm in pain
For lies they feed me
Its in vain

I know the truth
I'm the one to blame
But my darkness within
It won't go away

I hope someone will cast a light
On my shattered heart
I hope someone will love
This monster I'm

Without light, there is no shadow
Without good, there is no bad
Without death ,we wouldn't be alive
And without hate, we wouldn't feel love

Would You Care?

If I died
Would you care?
If I cried
Would you be there?

If you died
I would die
If you cried
I would cry

If I screamed
Would you calm me?
If I lived in fear
Would you hold me

If you screamed
I would kiss you softly
If you lived in fear
I would always be there

I hope you know
That I'm always there
Even if you hate me
I'll always be here for you

I hope you know
That I will always care
For even in the darkest hour
There is a distant light shining

And it will always shine
Because some people
They never stop caring

I Walk This Earth, For Nothing

I walk this earth, for nothing
I have no dreams
No ambitions
I have no hope, for tomorrow

I'm not happy, I'm not sad
I can hardly smile
I rarely cry
My emotions, they are dead

I walk this earth, for nothing
I walk this earth
simply to walk on it
I walk this earth, and I keep moving

Nothingness, that's my reason
My reason to smile
My reason to cry
My reason, for everything I do

Nothingness, is my hope
The reason I live
The reason I will die
Nothingness, a sweet word

For me, nothingness is a reason, it's a reason to live
also , life is a dark road, you never know what you will find

Bandaid Box

I wish I could be a band aid box
Covering your scars and cuts
Heal your wounds and make it alright

I wish I could be a band aid box
For then I could fix the pain I have caused
Help them heal and spread some love

I wish I could be a band aid box
A tiny little band aid box
So I could fix the pain I have caused

Dear Scouting Knife

No darling, I won't crawl back to you again
Stop calling, your voice will die in my head
You won't fix it, I'm better off on my own
Dear scouting knife, Leave me alone

Sea Of Depression

Left alone, in my heart
Six feet under
Cry in pain, dead inside
Six feet under

Fix the rose, stop the blood
Five feet Under
Kinda stuck, but It will mend
Five feet under

Now I'm stuck, Left for dead
Four feet under
Sometimes, I feel like shit
Four feet under

Getting better, all alone
Three feet under
I put my faith, in him for once
Three feet under

Music tastes, so damn good
Two feet under
I can listen again, to our song
Two feet under

Your almost there, you can grasp the air
a feet under
Tears of joy, crack a smile
a feet under

I'm finally out, finally free
I'm over the sea
I can love again, I can be me
I'm over t

I Don't Want A Super Hero

I'm not looking for a super hero
I'm not looking for someone to save the day
I'm not looking for a person who will lift the skies in my name
I'm looking for someone who stays

I'm not looking for a god
I'm not looking for someone to clear the heavens
I'm not looking for someone that doesn't hate
I'm looking for someone that makes me want to live another day

I'm not looking for a macho guy or a shy girl
I'm not looking for a fairytale
I'm not looking for someone who only stays in bed
I'm looking for someone that makes me smile each day

I'm not looking for a super hero
I'm looking for someone who stays
I'm looking for someone th

Happy Poem?

Someone asked me to write a happy poem
But I can't, on the inside I'm not happy

Someone asked me to smile for the camera
But how can I, When I'm falling part

Someone asked me to laugh my real laugh
But I can't, there is something wrong with me

Someone asked me to write a happy poem
But I can't, I'm not happy inside

And happiness is the only emotion
I can't fake

My World Is Dead

Some people are scared of the end of the world
I'm not afraid of that, because my world is already dead

I Don't Wanna Grow Up

I don't want to grow up
It was so much more fun
When I didn't understand
What happened around me, how it fell

I don't want to get old
Be wise and all that
For after years of living
I would know that life, isn't intact

I don't want to get a place of my own
Responsibility isn't my thing
I wouldn't be able to watch my offspring
knowing what they would face, a dying world
And a hope, left for dead

I want to stay young
I want to be unknowing
For in the end
Being stupid, will make it easier
To accept the end

I Have Never

I have never quite forgiven myself
I have never felt like I deserve better
I have never felt so depressed
And I guess I have never felt love

I have never had a smaller hope
I have never had so much faith
I have never cried so many times
And I guess I have never felt so lost

I have never ever been so thoughtful
I have never in my dreams grinded so wide
I have never lost my faith in you
But I guess, that's why it hurts

This Is Gonna Take A Long Time

You must love yourself to love others
....... This is going to take a long time

They say that every scars tells a story
Well, then I'm a fucking history book

Don't Listen To Them

Don't listen to them
Don't let them feed you lies
You're perfect, just the way you are

Don't give them the gain
Don't let them feed on your despair
You're golden inside, I know you are

Don't give them a reason
They enjoy seeing you suffer
But in the end it's not worth the while

Their mouths are like open graves
They tell only lies
For deep inside, you're worth more than a thousand diamonds that shine

I must be an alien
The others handle it so well
They move on
They're fine

I must be an alien
The others handle it so well
I'm crying
And I'm dying

I must be an alien
The only thing that I want
Is a friend
To hold me, to control me

I wish I could turn humanoid
Maybe then I wouldn't be alone
I'm broken
And I'm open

I must be an alien
I'm on the outside looking in
I'm Hoping
For nothing

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Skeletons in the street
They whisper and laugh
Their plan is almost complete
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It felt like a saw blade, cutting deep

The skeletons they walk this earth
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Have your heard the news?
She has posted another pic
She ain't pretty, She knows that inside
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Have you heard the news?
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She deserved it, that little bitch
It was suicide, and the mothers tears they wont dry

Have you heard the news?
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She was a wonderfull person, and loved everyone else
The mother knows, what killed her child

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I'm So Tired Of Being Here

by ~Meandor117, Mar 4, 2012, 4:36:15 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I'm so tired of being here
I'm trapped by all my fears
I wish you could see me now
Broken and crying for help
My blood it flows
And I don't want it to stop

I'm so tired of being here
I'm trapped by all my fears
I wish I could heal myself
Wipe all these tears away
But my heart it bleeds
And I don't know how to stop the blood

I'm so sick of being hurt
I'm trapped in my own mind
I wish I could hear those songs
But then I remember you
And I now I cry again
God why can't I be a man?

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I wrote this ALONG time ago, I fixed some parts, found it okay and though: Hey, why not post it? XD

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*ignorantangel Mar 22, 2012 Student Traditional Artist

Love it! Feel this way all the time. I wish sleep were eternal, that way i wouldn't have to face reality.
Makes me think of your poem "I'm Fine". I read the blog where you got the pic, it was very interesting, and I loved it.

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~Funshinerainbow Mar 17, 2012

"I wish you could see me now" - I've feel that way often, and I feel selfish for it, which reminds me of your "I'm Fine" poem (sorry if I got the title wrong).

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~Meandor117 Mar 17, 2012

You didn'tt get the title wrong

Glad you felt the emotion

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~Funshinerainbow Mar 17, 2012

Thank you. Your poetry is very easy to understand and connect to.

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~Meandor117 Mar 17, 2012

One of the reasons I write it simple

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~Funshinerainbow Mar 17, 2012

Why else do you write it simple?

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~Meandor117 Mar 18, 2012

Because my emotions are simple and I write about my emotions, also It's hard for me to work over and over with one poem i guess XD

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!luvserenity000 Mar 6, 2012 Student Writer

nice

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~Poison-Root Mar 5, 2012

love it~

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~Meandor117 Mar 5, 2012

I'm Glad ^^

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