Please, Save MePlease, save meI'm going underPlease, save meI'm drowning in my tearsPlease, save meI'm not gonna make itPlease, save meI don't want to lose this battlePlease, save meBut you ignored my pleaPlease, save meYou left me for deadPlease, don't save meFor this time, I will save myself
Abuse MeDon't take it inDon't let the sadness winBeautiful is the human lifeIf you open just your eyesIf you feel that no one caresIf you feel that no one is thereThen turn aroundI'm right thereWhatever you do to meI will always careScream at meHit meFor in the end, I will always love youIf you're my friend, then I will take the beatingTake your hatred out on me, make your victim my headI want the abuse, abuse me
I'm Gonna Torment MyselfI hate thisI hate lifeGive it to someone else, they won't throw it away"I want to runI want to hideBut I'm not a coward, I will fucking stay!The reason I liveThe only reason at allIs knowing that I, that I deserve this torment!I'm going insaneI see her everywhereAnd after losing her, I realized how much I loved her.I hate myselfI hate my lifeI will torture myself, before I end it.
I Don't Want A Super HeroI'm not looking for a super heroI'm not looking for someone to save the dayI'm not looking for a person who will lift the skies in my nameI'm looking for someone who staysI'm not looking for a godI'm not looking for someone to clear the heavensI'm not looking for someone that doesn't hateI'm looking for someone that makes me want to live another dayI'm not looking for a macho guy or a shy girlI'm not looking for a fairytaleI'm not looking for someone who only stays in bedI'm looking for someone that makes me smile each dayI'm not looking for a super heroI'm looking for someone who staysI'm looking for someone that makes me want to live another dayI'm looking for someone that makes me smile each dayI'm looking for someone, who thinks I'm perfect, this way
I'm The SaltI'm the saltIn your woundI was made to make it hurtBut I'm myselfI'm the saltIn your woundI used to make things healBut I changedWhat have I becomeMy sweetest friend?I don't like the one I amBut it's so hard for me to changeI'm the saltAnd you can't turn me into flourSomething innocent, something pureI'm the salt, rub me in your wound
You Fucked Me UpI gave you my lifeAnd now I'm rotting insideI gave you my dreamsAnd now they're fading awayI gave you my hopeAnd now it's crushedI gave you my mindAnd now it's filled with depressionBut most of allI gave you my heartbut you let it rotYou let it fade awayYou crushed itAnd you filled it with depressionTo say it simpleSo everyone will understandYou fucked me upAnd I'm recovering, slowly
On The InsideOn the inside I'm aloneIn my head there is chaosOn the outside I'm freeI'm calm and just meI hang myself everydayUnder my skin I kill myselfWhat you see is a smileWhat you hear is a laughA lost soul looking for a purposeWhat does it expect to find?Answers or the truth?Cause am I really alive?
InvisibleStand another minute aloneThey won't noticeLet another tear fall on the groundThey don't notice at allMake another cutThey won't noticeSing another heartbreaking songThey don't notice at allYou do not need a superpowerTo be invisibleAnd it hurts me to knowThat they don't notice, at all
The Wet InkI hope you knowThat every nightYou're in my headI hope you knowThat I still careAnd that I did was wrongThe ink is wetAs I writeOn this piece of paperFor the tearsOf my sinsThey won't disappear
This Is Gonna Take A Long TimeYou must love yourself to love others....... This is going to take a long time
Don't Listen To ThemDon't listen to themDon't let them feed you liesYou're perfect, just the way you areDon't give them the gainDon't let them feed on your despairYou're golden inside, I know you areDon't give them a reasonThey enjoy seeing you sufferBut in the end it's not worth the whileTheir mouths are like open gravesThey tell only liesFor deep inside, you're worth more than a thousand diamonds that shine
You Love The SoundsI finally understand whyYou keep hurting meTime after timeYou love the soundsMy heart makesEvery timeIt breaks
Cousin Of DeathCousin of death, take me inLet me rest, forgive this sinI haven't lost it all, but I show painAnd soon I guess, I will walk in the rainOh cold winter, don't remind meOf how, I couldn't seeOh cold winters day, you're as cold as my heartRemind me of the days, when it was warmCousin of death, comfort meMake me believe, this isn't the best of meCousin of death, invite your friendsCause agony and suffering, is better in the endDeath, I have been alive way to longYour cousin, makes me wish that I was wrongCause I don't wanna wake upSo please, take me in your warm blanketsAnd don't let me open my eyesEver again
Dead InsideI'm searching for faithIn a world left for deadI'm crying for helpIn a world forever goneI'm hoping for a dreamIn a nightmare never-endingI'm clinging to my emotionsBut soon I will have nonI'm dyingI'm dying aliveDeath comes aliveDeath is a part of lifeBut what if I'm already dead, inside
Learn To WatchThe bloody rainThat's what it becameNever endingIt has never been here beforeDead insideDreaming of a hopeLeft behindWondering aloneNo answersYou will workWalk blindlyAnd see what you will findLearn to watchAnd do not laughLearn to listenAnd you will learn to speak
Acceptance.Friends all stand in front of me...Laughing, joking carelessly...I hide my arms so they can't see...What it is I've done to me...And though I try to hang around...They often leave me feeling lost...What will it take just to be found?How much more will my joy cost..?('Cause I don't live, I just survive)(Among the crowd, I'm ostracized)(I can not be indemnified)(I fell too hard, I broke this time)My parents always yell at me...Like I won't get it unless they scream...But I never do know what they mean...Why do they have to smother me?!I've got my back pressed to the fences...I'm sorry that I'm such a hinderance...I long to feel some kind of presence...Something more than this hated essence..Suffered from my unjust sentence...All I ask for from this world...Is a little bit of pure acceptance...
Maybe, Just MaybeWhy can't I be sad about this?Not a single tear has flownAm I emotionless?Am I a monster?Why can't I be sad about thisMy mood seems to be the sameAm I heartless?Am I empty?Why can't I be sad about thisThe others have their masks onWhy do I not need mine?What have I become?Or maybe, just maybeI have grown used to the painOf losing someone who's close to meMaybe, just maybe
No Meaning, Just FeelingNo Meaning, Just Feeling:It's all just words across the pageYou put them together in an angry rage.You wanted to get these feelings outBut writing's not what this is about...You're tired of expressingHow you think you feel.You'd rather just screamAt least it's real....No sense or logicJust raw emotion.Like the churning wavesOf a sleeping ocean.Destroy the structureOf all you say.Take away the illusionsThey get in the way...Just say what you thinkAnd you might go free.But maybe this isn't how it's supposed to be..."Is it really not possible, to scream through words?"-Chen Yuan Wen, 21st April 2012
Let's Talk About YouIf I'm dead before sunrise,Will you mourn my demise,Or sing with joy at my fall,Or perhaps you won't notice at all?Why should you?If I tell you my theories and thoughts,Will you send me to an institution of sorts,Or just laugh at my fears,Or be blind to my tears?How could you?If I'm insane by midnight,Will you finally see my plight,Or simply sigh and call it a phase,Or blame some other teen craze?Why would you?If you're dead before sunrise,I will not mourn your demise,Nor sing with joy at your fall,I'll Just act like I don't care at all.Well, it fooled you, didn't it?
DelusionDelusion:You've covered yourself with blanketsLike you're hiding from the bogey man.You're so enraptured with your own egoThat you reject the helping hand!You twisted what was a friendly gestureAnd called it your very right.Now it's time for you to fade awayInto the bitter cold of night.I'm about to show you realitySo stay tuned and watch me work.I'll paint you a vivid pictureThat'll give your heart a jerk...See you thought you should be top side;Basking in the morning gloryBut you're sitting in a filthy sewerThis is your fucking story.When first you stepped upon the crowds;Like a sea of angry sharksThey rose upon a swelling waveAnd sent you somewhere dark.Bleeding, chopped and mutilatedHung like a chunk of rotting meat...Just give up on your diginityAnd accept your own defeat."You look so beautiful, when you're crying..."-Chen Yuan Wen, 16th April 2012
I'm Fine.Two lies spoken,More often than all,In reality I'm broken,As limp as a doll.Look at my smile,What hides silent truth,Judge my petty trial,Uncover rotten youth.Under porcelain skin,Where black and white align,With a sinister grin,I'll tell you I'm fine.
Is It Wrong?Is it wrongThat I glance up at the clouds,Feeling the wind through my hair,And dream of a mystifying landWhere one can be accepted no matter what?Is it wrongThat I choose to wear jeans down past my heels,Baggy and ripped at the knees,Unlike all the other boys that wear athleticShorts, so unscathed and clean?Is it wrongThat I ask people about their troubles,Sometimes doing all in my mortal powerTo help them surpass the simple,Even ones I have not defeated myself?Is it wrongThat while the few friends I haveDance around giddily and go toThe most extreme only to impress,But I only hang back in silent content?Is it wrongThat I do not laugh when others are hurt,On their knees in blood stained mud,And I am there with hand outstretched,Seeming to always be there in time of need?Is it wrongThat I do not clap, nor do I supportOnes I do not find worthy of it,Ones who I find in my perspective to beQuite cruel and bitterly heartless?Is it wrongThat I choose to sit in
I Am So DisturbedI Am So Disturbed:How long will it burn me,In darkness cloaked.Raped by a voice,Of death it spoke.The ceiling revolves with words of sorrow,Draped on the walls, they are creatures hollow.Screaming and crying, the death we seek,The eyes that stare, when I fall asleep.Voiceless whispers and empty sound,The pattern of drool, that stains the ground.Endlessly scratching at walls and eyes,I stare at reflections that breathe to die.The darkened shadows that seem to stain,The constant sound of a pouring rain.Wherever I go, the eyes that lead,Within me planting a dirty seed.Again and again I am twisted by sound,I wake in a room that seems to surround.I see myself, but I know it's not me,What is man, in the mirror I see..."You sir, have got terrible bags beneath your eyes!"-Chen Yuan Wen, 3rd March 2012
Beaten Black and BlueBeaten Black and Blue:Broken and bloodied on the inside;My world is coloured in shades of black.But I've never understood the reasonFor why I've got these scars on my back...Cigarette burns are nothing new to my bodyI took a lash from the whip just yesterday.Why are you staring at me with those eyes again;Is there something you'd like to say?I've never been told to speak a word of my painAnd so I learned that I shouldn't speak...'You'd better not say a single thing to her!'Maybe I'm just scared and weak...I often run to a place that's far away;It's just a little corner inside my mind.I've tried to forget it again and againBut it comes back to me all the time...These people think that they know meBut a smile is just a mask to hide.This is the crime that I keep a secretBecause it's locked away inside...You'll never be able to help meSo don't give me your pity and tears.Just tell me that you won't do the same thingBecause that is the worst of m
My Worst EnemyYour cruel eyes pierce into mineA challenging smirk playing at your lips"What do you think?"I hate it"I did my best."Could have done better"I think I'm different"I think you're stupid"He said I was pretty."Hideous"You're so harsh."You deserve it"I deserve happiness."You deserve death
I stare at youYou stare at meWe're both staring in the same mirror
Fallen Into DarknessFallen Into DarknessI'm a dark void, my shadow casts its own shadowAnd I'm too much of a coward to even try and turn backI'm so bleak, because I've managed to create a new breed of sorrowAnd I'd be a fool to even attempt to move out and into the blinding blackMy mere gaze can darken the brightest tomorrowThat must be why I am destined to remain here foreverMy life is unaware that death is what I yearn to give intoThat's another reason to sever every bond for the betterI vowed to myself that I wouldn't take you down with meYour kind strength and light is what I can no longer borrowI am nothing but a doubled-edged sword, it is what I will always beI'm regretfully swaying away from the promised path that I used to followBut I assure you that I will be alrightSo please remember you did everything you couldBut I've already made up my mindAnd you said every hopeful word
I Have ChangedMy tears, they won't dry for awhileMy blood, it will flow for some timeMy fears, they keep me aliveBut in the endThis is the real meNot the portrait you once knewI have changed, and so have you