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RearrangeI don't understand it
When you're talking to my face
I don't accept it
That you treat me like shit

But this is what we have become
We have gone too far
From pride we have fallen
Let's rearrange this and build It up

I don't understand when
You're treating me like shit
I don't want to hurt you
But I'm falling for your tricks

How did we become this
How did we lose all hope
Lets rise from the ashes
Let's rearrange this and built it up

So now we have walked a thousand miles
But we haven't learned
We crossed the corners of the earth
But this just won't work

Why do we keep hoping
This has gone far enough
Let's watch this crumb
Just say goodbyeYou want to know my story
but are you really sure?
It's not like you can save me
not like you're the cure.

My story's on my body
it's hidden from the world.
To all of them I'm happy
just another girl.

I've got to say

Leave me alone, let me be
Please let go, can't you see.
I don't want anyone to watch me bleed and cry.
Just leave me alone, just say goodbye.

It's all hidden from them all
The pain inside my head.
And because I never told
it's always been like that.

There's nobody I know
that could ever understand.
I'm lost in all of my thoughts
lost in no-mans land.

Just go away

Leave me alone, let me be
Please let go, can
ExhaustedI gave myself time to regain my strength
But as I recover, I notice how much easier it is to be exhausted
I Can't Be your Knight In Shining ArmorIf you could see me now
You would know I'm not the same
But you won't give me a chance

I know I'm not perfect
You don't have to say it twice
But my imperfection is me

I can't be your knight
That armor is too heavy for me
You will find someone else, stronger and free

That person will be free
Until you corrupt him
With this idea of perfection

To be imperfect
Is the be perfect
That's how you're yourself

And didn't you always say
Be yourself?
Tomorrow Is Another DayHow can I dream
When I'm hurt?
How can I smile
When I'm dirt?

How can I hope
When I'm forgotten?
How can I be
When I'm nothing?

I don't know how
But there are some things
That you just have to do
If not for yourself
Then for someone close

I don't know if these words
Will impact you, or set an impression
But take this advice
From an old cutter
It gets better, even if your life has melted like butter

You're not forgotten
You're always in someone's mind
You're not dirt
Cause to someone you shine

There is still hope for you
Even if your dream is broken
I noticed that
When the girl I loved, came even closer

Don't hurt yo
The Dark ForestThe dark forest
It takes you in
And comes when you least expect it

The dark forest
Comfort you
But at the same time it’s your graveyard of memories

As you venture deeper into the darkness
You feel this presence sitting on your shoulder
As it gets comfortable you remember the feeling
And it fills you with fright

The dark forest
Horrible in its own way
You hate being there but you’ve know it for so long

The dark forest
Inside there is no turning back
While you know you don’t want to do this

And as you reach the end you see the a shovel
The presence gets stronger as you pick it up
You walk a little longer until you get to
Memories From YesterdayMemories from yesterday
Came to haunt me today
The tears I spill tonight
I hope they will quickly end

I'm blessed with this curse
I can't forget who you are
And at times that make me hurt
For every stab I've felt
I know they're mostly from you

From yesterday all the dreams
They come to haunt me today
I need somebody someone
To hold me tonight when I realize this pain

I'm blessed with these memories
I'm bless with this hurt
For every step that I make
I know you won't be there
On my way

All this came from yesterday
And I know it sounds like dirty
But this is my life
And I hate it so much
Real words, Real tears, Real me.Go to Church. 
No.
Un-Peirce yourself.
Be a virgin.
Stop crying.
Stop smiling.
You're a freak.
I know.
You're emo.
What are you?
I hate you.
I hate myself, too.
I hope you die.
I hope I do, too.
You're an attention-whore.
Is it wrong to want someone to be there?
Why can't you just be happy?
Because there's nothing to be happy about.
You're a loner.
You're a whore.
I hate you all.
I promise not to cutI promise not to cut
To bleed to scar to hurt
But this feeling's boiling up inside
I'll try but things get worse
I can't take it anymore
I must hurt
Relapse

I promise not to cut
To numb to give to sink
But my head is throbbing
full of thoughts and confused emotions
I try but it's all my fault anyways
I should suffer
Relapse

I promise not to cut
To drown to harm to break
But I am worthless anyways
What's the point in my existence
I only take up space
I should bleed
Relapse
MaybeYour body has been used
By all of those who are broken.
The ones who are trying to repair
Their own wounds with
No regards towards your own.

You are a hand for him to hold
While he thinks of her
And tries to forget the emptiness
And the fact that he is alone.

For a brief moment while
He is inside of you,
You feel as if you are the
Missing half of the whole,
And it is perfect.

He recites memorized lines
And you wonder who else
Has heard them before you,
But you tell yourself that
You're the first anyway.

Your body has been used
By all of those who are broken,
And you begin to wish that
Maybe,
Just maybe,
You could
Keep On ShiningThis truth it has stabbed my heart
Like a thousand needles slowly making their way
This love has made me fall apart
I'm broken glass, I'm the broken glass of man

The stabs gets harder every day
The needles they come closer to my heart
As I grow it tears me to pieces
I'm tattered cloth, thrown in the litter

As I try to recover and stand straight
I realize how crocked my back has been all this time
I can't walk straight
Cause my guilt and my shame, brings me down

But even thought through all this
I have still small light that shines to me every day
Cause even in my darkest days
It can still make me smile, it always wants me to
Take it awayWipe away my tears...
I want you around me.
Take away my fears...
They're all coming after me..
I'm Always sad...
And with no live to love..
Wipe away my tears..
And take this life...away.
Give it to somebody else..
Someone worth it... worth it more than me..
Take it from me...
I'm only wasting it...
Take the pain away.. (stop making me suffer)
My heart can no longer resit...
This'll kill me anyway... (later)
Please stop... and take my heart... (Away)......
Take it away.
Razor Blades FEEL THE PAINRazor blades
Broken glass
Fire and boiling water
Fists against the wall
Breaking knuckles in the tune
of your still-beating broken heart
of the drums that beat LOUD in your head
Of the voice crying out, screaming NO NO NO
Broken glass and pain, crying out, silent against the rain
Shower's turned out, hot as hell, wash away the pain and blood
Dripping down your skin, rinse away
Fight and pound, scream
Beats in your head let it out
There's pleasure in the pain
It measures who you are
You scream because you're numb, and yet you still hurt
you scream LET ME FEEL
Keep it coming, the beats goes on
You keep marching, keep pounding
Something breaks t
ListenCan you hear me
Listen
Listen to my cries
Hear me
Feel my pain
See your neglect
Understand what you've put me through
Hear me roar
My anger bouncing off the wall
My sadness ringing in
Your deaf ears
Can't you hear me
Do you just not care
Listen to me
Listen
Don't walk away
I'm not finished
If only you'd hear me
If only I could make you see
Why won't you listen
Why don't you care
Do you not see the tears
I'm shedding
You're the one that's made to care
It's your job
Why can't you just listen

Maybe you can't hear me
Yeah
That's it
I'm just not loud enough
Open Your EyesIf you can't face my lies
Then how will you accept the truth?
if you can't open your eyes
Then how can you claim to see through?
If you can't understand me
Then why do you even bother?
I make it as simple as I can
But you just can't get it
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My spirit has moved on, to the skies
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sometimes I dream
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Then I got two words for you

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Breathless

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Here I'm once again
Just checking if you're okay
It's a long time since I last saw you
And I know we're not friends

But even though
you want me gone
It's not that easy to leave
To be honest, you're a part of me

I hope you won't notice
That I've been here
If you do then I know you'll leave
But I love watching you, when I do I can't breath

Even if I'm dead to you
You're still on my mind
You used to be a part of me
And I'm sorry I can't let you go

I wonder what's the right thing
I wonder what to do
Maybe I should just stare at you
And you'll leave me breathless till I die
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That moment when you miss someone who hates you and you just have to know if they're still alive >-< I dunno, but I really miss her for some reason...... well well I have days like this at times :)

After I wrote this poem I remembered two lines in a song that really fits how I feel and yeah XD I wanted to share them :) It's from the song: Breath by Breaking Benjamin ( Here's a link [link] )

The lines
You take the breath right out of me
You left a hole where my heart should be

Yeah XD Have a great day people!
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Mood: dA Love ~Emo-Artist-Midnight Nov 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Vivid and beautiful! :3
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~Meandor117 Nov 12, 2012
Thanks :)
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~Emo-Artist-Midnight Nov 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem :D
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~GeekGirl97 Nov 11, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
unfortunately, I relate a lot with your poem xDDD

which by the way is TOTALLY AWESOME and BEAUTIFUL :33

you're very talented ^^
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~Meandor117 Nov 12, 2012
It sucks when you relate to poems like these XD
Thanks btw :)
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~GeekGirl97 Nov 12, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah, SO. NOT. NICE. Hahahahaha xDDD

And you're welcome ^^
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~sleepy-kisses Nov 10, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:/ Know this feeling...
But! You know, maybe someday you'll get over it :) I'm sure an ex of mine hates me but it's beyond my control, y'know? If they no longer want to spend time with you, why spend time dwelling on them? You never know what you'll see once your eyes are open ♥ wish you the best of luck and happiness :)
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~Meandor117 Nov 11, 2012
My problem is that I have been like this for almost a year and it just keeps comming XD
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~sleepy-kisses Nov 11, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It takes time :) My depression returns periodically over the past 5 years, but just get through it, kay? ♥
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~Banditgirl Nov 10, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:icontruestoryplz:
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